Random blahness

Sorry for the inexcusable absence from the blog, but Taipei is far more overwhelming than expected.  

I have gained a few unwanted extra pounds,

sore overworked limbs and am always worrying about being friggin constipated. 

Not too sure how much time it may take

to catch up on an extreme lack of sleep especially with the

weekend round the corner.

however, am pledging to post more often

 with plenty of Spring/Summer inspiration to rejoice as i

embrace the hot yet cool weather...

xoxo

e

Life as it is

each time i am upset or moody i am inspired to write

but as soon as the Xanax kicks in

i lose all motivation and everything is point blank again

 

but one thing remains for sure, and that is i’m upset again

at a time when everyone is busy scooting around town making last purchases

before they usher in the lunar new year

 

for me, this festive season brings me a mixed bag of emotions

happy because it marks a new phase in life, new resolutions etc

sad because it evokes unpleasant memories (not going into details)

 

the year of the rabbit is no exception

it has been that way since 2006 and i do not foresee a change in circumstances

and i often blame myself for these self-inflicted pain

 

Thank god for xanax!!!

 

and God if you really do exist

please make the year a smooth sailing one, albeit challenges and obstacles

because dying is not a solution

 

some of you may think or say that my life is far better than those in the under-developed countries

where there are famines and no food and clean water

my take is, never make comparisons

 

even if one has to compare

it would be on the quality of life now and then

mine has for sure deteriorated from the heydays of being filthy rich

when i was in my late twenties

 

a fortune teller told me that i’d strike the jackpot when i hit the forties

but not without some major challenges in my mid 30’s

36 to be more accurate

 

there is a high chance that i would be bed-ridden and eventually die

what scares me most was that i used to tell my childhood friends that

i wouldn’t live beyond 36 …………..

 

the past two years have been tumultuous, pathetic and terribly lonely

while most of my peers are happily married with children and some still high flyers

mine was lived in solitude with no shoulder to cry on

 

pathetic because it’s a Saturday tonight and it is half past ten as i type

and i am home, yes i am home without an agenda

or a number i could dial to turn things around, nurture my soul whatevs

 

perhaps i should go to sleep like i always do

and i’d tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day

such is life

 

goodnite earthlings

e

In a flick of an eye

37 days have passed

 since my cousins arrived on Malaysian shores

today will be the last day of their vacation

before they return to Singapore tomorrow where the grueling begins

i foresee that when they return home

they will be slammed with more homework than ever

in preparation for the new year ahead

and we, especially mum, will miss them heaps

oh well, there’s always next year end

because it is an annual thing

after year-end exams they would be sent back here again

where there is no stress or pressure on studies

miss you guys!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i wished they could come every 3 months

really i do …..

the sad thing is, i didn’t even take that many

pictures with them

sad..sad..sad

e

Camwhoring

bored in the car

the cousin and I decided to camwhore with her HTC Sense

although i have my doubts about picture quality

the pictures turned out pretty darn good

 

say hello to Yue Ying!!

 

she reminds me of my teenage years

hehe she has ipad, bleh, envy

see my boy cousin behind? photobombing us! Darn!!

these are my cousins from Singapore

they come visit me every year-end, for about 1-2 months

and during this period i am most happy

because the house is filled with laughter, loud and boisterous

happy

i think i shall buy Christmas presents today

happy mood

i’ve actually figured out what to get for everybody

the boyfriend’s present arrived yesterday

he LIKED it, phew

ciao

e

 

My new ride

is finally here *pleased*

not exactly a short time but deffo the wait ;)

b surprised me with his new toy on my mother's birthday

sadly i wasn't the first person he took for a ride

*bah*

i decided to call it camcam

like miumiu, get?

though when i asked b the other night *when he was drousy*

he called it ah hui yes AH HUI!!

damn cheena lor

so to get him back, i started to call the car AH HUI

and he corrected me saying that it was camcam

the name i had chose earlier

but it's fun to call it Ah Hui

cause i like to see his face cringe each time i called Ah hui

hehe

mycarnotahhui

e

Gardenia

i had a fair share of Gardenia in KL

why is it not available in Kuching??????

absurd.

today - massive migraine

no sound no lights

just me in a pitch black room

WHY ME????

to hell with MIGRAINES

e

Yesh *punches fist in air like DY*

my Iphone4 is finally here

although it is the 3gs that i've always wanted

having played around with it

i think i would still need a bit of time getting used to it

let's not forget 

that i was a BB user

the touch screen thing was a bit intimidating at first

hopefully i would get the hang of it ***soon

if i were to choose one between the two

BB wins hands down

becoz i think it's more practical

and easier to maneuver

i guess what sets the Iphone apart from the BB

is the amount of applications

ranging from utilities to entertainment 

and a bigger screen display

that's about it i think?

physically the Iphone 4 is thicker, imo

and it is not not tapered at the corners

and it doesn't come in white!! 

at least that's what i was told

on a separate note

i've got a few things i've gotta do 

which irks me to no end

please please remind me that i've to renew my passport

good thing is, it only takes one or two days to get it done

back in the olden * tens year or so* days

it would have taken weeks or months

i can't recall

i'm going to Taiwan

in two weeks

pardon me, but i've not recuperated from KL

there's so much going on i barely have time to breathe

ok

inhale inhale inhale exhale

like ur going into labor

muahahhahahahahahahahahah

i need to look for my boots!!

taiwanhereicome

e

Another mundane day

A year ago

i would have been very happy

not doing anything but just flicking

from one channel to another on the idiot box

today i'm bored to the skull

sitting through dramas and sitcoms and what nots

never would i have thought

this day would come

i am so depressed

my life is pathetic because

instead of looking forward to weekends

i'm actually longing for a job

now that i'm almost fully recovered
staying home is probably the worst thing on earth
especially during the day
when frenemies are away or out at work

i cannot even imagine
how some people can actually cope with this
sleep during the day
and go out and play by night

no i can't take it anymore
i need to shout it all out, let it all out
everyone around me seems to have
an agenda or task of their own

me?

on a separate note
it was B's lunar birthday yesterday
we celebrated it again
this time with my family

hope he is happy
if i can't be happy at least
i wish that people around me
can be happy

btw while surfin the net
i read that the medication i am on
has a "horriterrible" side effect
WEIGHT GAIN

so no matter what i do
diet, exercise or eat less
i still will put on weight, meaning
even if i were to live on water
i'd still be fat

i feel like ending my life

fuckmylife
e

.:: All about nothing ::.

it is one of those days again

when i spend the whole day doing nothing

just staring at the screen

occasionally you'll catch me reading a blog or two

no more forums for me

fifi doesn't want to play with me

it seems like he is taking more and more power naps lately

i wish i could put myself to sleep

as easy as he can

and then i might have a sweetdream or two

on a separate note

i think i am swimming again tonight

cause the bf couldn't book a court

for badminton

icy cold water again

brb

Money makes the world go around

another boring weekday

i am the puteri of sian-nessss

bow to me

anyway out of my sian-nessss i decided to chat with Ms G

here's our conversation

e e e k a y says:
 hhhahaah good for her lah
 any new interesting blogs to read?
 

g_dine says:
 nope
 i don really read blog nowadays

e e e k a y says:
 u noe what i wish?
 i wish i can go for holidays all the time without having to work
 and that money will fall from the sky
 and im the only person who can pick it wahahaha
 then id be an extremely happy person
 so, money makes the world go round

g_dine says:
 omg
 tat's my dream too
 hi5
 haha

e e e k a y says:
 hahaha i paste that into my blog

see?

see how great minds think alike?

even more scary is that

Ms G wants to work in the travel & tourism industry

same like yours truly

only it is not that easy ... Sigh

oh but what is?

on another separate note

i think my uterus is on strike!!

i haven't had my menses since July

and no i am not preggers...  

the hell with unionized workers, they are really on strike

is it something i've done wrong? not feeding them?

its a krazzzy world

everything's gone haywired

that means i have been bloating for super long

i have so much water in me

i can fill up an Olympic size swimming pool

.:: fuckkk water retention ::.

i want to go horseback riding

can somebody tell me if there is a horse riding club here?

i heard there was one some twenty years ago

i swear

i wanna be so good at it

 i'll train it so when the traffic lights turn red 

 my horsemobile will stop on its own

plus, i'll never have to use seatbelts again

i'll name my super horse Ronaldo *** so alpha male

btw my girlfriend just text me

to tell me that i will be seated at table 23 for her reception dinner

i told her that i might not be able to go

her reply? YOU BETTER COME

oklor

i ride my horse there

see got valet or not hahahah

boys and girls

don't simply ride on horses 

unless you have Class H printed on your driving liscense 

go ask your father and mother

***** see if i am lying *****

ok, i'm so lazy to edit my pictures

that explains the lack of pictures of late

i promise i'll take more pictures

and post them up

so bear with me alright?

just to motivate myself

i know what you're thinking

let me get this straight

i am NOT trying to act cute here

there's just a pimple i had to hide, lolololox

it's almost lunch time

gotta find food with my old man

my dad lah!!

***notfeelinghungryatall***

Papa don't speak

i'm too lazy to do anything

yes, anything

my life couldn't be anymore mundane

day in day out

if it weren't for my dad

i probably would have stuck my head in the toilet bowl 

and flushed it

but my dad *usually jovial* is not in top form today

i left half a pineapple tart on his desk 

just to irritate him

but he kept quiet and threw it away instead

that didn't work - fail

so i said i'd make him a coffee

and i called him an addict

just to irritate him

but he said he could stop drinking starting tomorrow

that didn't work - fail

months ago, he said he'd like to make a trip to Macau

and then i told him that Matta fair 

was around the corner

and that didn't excite him

then he continued staring at his computer screen - fail

i couldn't get him to talk

i failed to irritate him

which in turn amuses me to no end

i do not know what went wrong with my dad today

and then he told me to cook rice

so i ran

as fast as i could

because i know better

i don wanna do any house chores

i really don wanna do any house chores

fail fail fail

e

Happy Birthday

Malaysia!!

but hor, there is no festive ambience whatsoever

some firework display last night

but that didn't even last 5 minutes * roll eyes

but idc because all i care is that B doesn't have to work today

and he can accompany me today all day

but he didn't

i think his boss needs him more than i do

so much for public holiday

no wonder he hates being in the construction line

he promised me he'd be back in a while

knowing him, a while could last one whole afternoon

aiya this feels more like my daily routine

wait wait wait till the day is over, say 5.30pm 

and that's when i and the rest of my fairy friends come out and play

i don't believe it, i check what the time is

and it shows 4.21pm

i already dislike his boss, but this has pushed it further

to the point of disgust and detest 

geram can?

anyway i feel hungry

and i don't wanna snack

i want something solid, like a hamburger or something

like i wanna try the GCB burger at McD

speaking of fast food

i thought that Pizza Hut here had the new pasta wrapped in parchment paper

like those i saw on Xiaxue's blog

i buzzed them and they told me it is not available here

HAHHAHAHAHHA

i think i'm going to spend my day just watching

America's next top model

until around 6-ish and go home for dinner

i don't feel like this is a special day

because there is no cake, no candle, no bb, and oh i forgot

ooooooooooo

i'm excited at the thought of opening a shop

to sell something *b is really keen lor

he says he would do the id 

and bla bla bla

i just need to get the products

cool right?

amiuptoit?

e

Rags to riches

That only happens in fairytales laaaaaaa

And my life is no Disney fairytale

I don't walk on gold-paved roads

And everything I touch withers and dies

In short, my life is hell turned over

And over n over n over

Ok I'll admit it *I'm fuming* wtf

I need a Xanax like House needs his Vicodin

The doctor never gives enough

And I end up blowing everyone's head away

But for a reason, I think everyone needs 

a knock on their head to keep them going

And who better to whack them if not me?

Whack Whack Whack knn

I can feel my old friend on the prowl as I am typing

That could only mean I need 75mg of Voltaren

after which I would feel normal again

Could be my pms but anyhow anyway idk idc

Separately the waiter at Samudra is pretty darn stupid

He had to take my order 3 fucking times before he got it right

I am so tempted to wallop him 

but at the same time I feel sorry for him

Because maybe every other customer he serves 

wants a piece of his sorry ass?!!

It's funny how when I piss myself off

Blogging always does the trick for me

Writing mellows me down, very much

And then I forget what it was that provoked me

I sound like a brat I know 

but that's only because ya'll treat me like one

makes a whole lot of sense

Doesn't it?

I damn clever right?

I need a life

e

Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Mood-0-meter

on a scale of 1 - 10 i'd rate my mood as a 3 today

now if there was a gun to my head

i'd be real honest and say today is a 1

so that you guys can shoot me in my head

and i can probably come back in the next life as somebody more interesting

somebody that can influence others

to do good and save the world

okok

i am upset

not like this is something new

like i've always said if i had to live a long life

at least make it a happy one

GOD? Are you listening or not?

you took away my cousin three weeks ago

did you make a mistake? shouldn't it be me?

really there is nothing in life that i look forward to, so yea

take me away

i repeat take me away

no one would shed a tear

some may even be relieved

i feel like i'm cursed and i bring bad luck, like a jinx you know?

like old people always say

aiyaaa if you were born in the olden days and if you were lucky

you would have married and have kids

but i am not that lucky lor,

and don't pretend you care

because the closest around me don't even give two hoots

and stop sending consolation smses

they don't count

why couldn't i be born as a domestic cat?

why pick cat you ask me? ok, let this lao gor tell you

as a cat - gotta be domestic

1) i can come and go and no one would scold me

2) i am well fed - fresh fish and dry food

3) apart from licking my hair, i am always well groomed

4) i can sit on the window sill and just wait for the day to pass by

5) i don't have to pay for rent nor am i committed to a loan or burdened by credit card bills

6) i don't even have to talk just rub rub a bit on someone's leg

7) people see me and go waaaaa so cute

8) i don't waste money on mani-pedi, spa or facial worry about unwanted hair

9) i don't have to be schooled - i poo & pee outside

10) my owner loves me to bits!!

on a separate note, i met my former editor-in-chief 

at MBO last night

(old people also watch movie one meh?

oklah he is not that old *just in case he is reading this

anyhoots i immediately took the opportunity to ask him about work

but before he could say anything, the missus came by, cut into the conversation

damn potong stim right?

nemind, at least he had the sincerity to tell me to buzz him another day

i think another day would be after my trip to Taiwan coming October

i'm not desperate to work but i feel depressed at home

anyway its a lose-lose situation

but one comes with moolah, so that makes it a 70-30 HAHAHAHAH

speaking of work i'm thinking of extorting either my dad or mum 

to pay for my shopping *think work clothes*

you know, pick up my tabs hehehhehehehehehe

unless they want me to siasuay them 

then ignore me lah

i don't care i'll probably slob around in the house

until they BUAY TAHAN

then i'd rub it in and say, neh so-and-so's parents

just bought their daughter a macbook/D-SLR/Beemer and the list goes on

i'm sure alot of you do it too lor

correction, most of you don't have to do it and the presents just come flowing in

you guys should go and pai ti kong to have such 

wonderful parents, ipad come out straight away buy

iphone 4g buy

anything come out also buy #$%#$#$

and adding to the woes

my diet scheme is not working

although some have said that i look smaller

wtf, what is it suppose to mean "you look smaller?"

like i'm short issit?

just say la, you have slimmed abit leh liddat also cannot meh

i damn gut lak also no use

use this cream, use that lotion eat slimming pills

drink slimming coffee, chinese herbs

anything under the sun i have done it

why is it that it works on other people just not me?

kanasai i drink water also become fat, siao lah just kill me please???

i think imma stop talking for three months

maybe, just maybe, it'll scare the shit of *eh who ah?*

just someone lah

maybe then my quality of life would pick up abit?

i feel so disconnected like almost alienated, save for a few friends

who still talk to me on a regular basis

*lie one, i said it to look more normal

That's IT!

you wanna know how my mood is?

it's fuckall

there, i've spoilt the scale and i hope it stays that way

why can't i just live a normal happy life?

because i don't deserve it

nemind

i won't prove you wrong, or right

i go sleep

you people can scold all you want idk, idc

ilovefifi

e

It's fuckall time

again!!

another month has passed without noticing it

considering that i'm always complaining that time is stagnant

especially when i am bumming around

most of the time

and even though i muck around mostly

i still have to pay bills

absurd innit?

i've managed to curb myself from online shopping

the parcels are not coming in anymore

(i miss mr postman)

cut down on most things that require money

and i still get letters from banks

i don't remember signing for anything lately

but then that could be just part of my deteriorating memory bank

and in an effort to save moolah

i've even switched to Digi for unlimited data use for my BB

mind boggling

no

i'm not gonna post up my bills

but there are shitloads of them trust me

i'm thinking of selling my car

since i don't use it very often, sounds like a good plan??

maybe i would, just maybe

okla okla

it is not as bad as i portray it to be

but for a jobless person

it does get pretty upsetting lo when these bills arrive

nemind

slow and steady

i will get those bills sussed out

besides i already cleared alot - like two to three cards

imma make a new resolution now

note to self: stop using future money or borrowed credit

put a reminder everyday for the rest of the year

i really gotta start saving for my trip to Taiwan

i hate window shopping

eh but hor, like since i started to save money

i actually have become quite spendthrift/frugal sth like that

just not KIAM SIAP ok?

O.o btw

of the pile of letters i have on my table

there is actually one that i like

Maybank has sent me a note reminding me to collect my new card

hehhehe

i hope they didnt make it too nice

then i'd find it too irresistable

hence the shopping habit will auto start again

loloxxxx

wattodo wattodo

e

Another sombre day

it is today

i've had to deal with the bf

and also the fact that my cousin will not be coming back

he was to me

easily one of my best cousins

articulate, creative and a lady's man

he was liked by much

but God took him away from us

as his sister said

he was gone too soon

he has not even tasted life yet

but as the bf said

the body is only a house for the soul

and now he is off to a better place

one that is not filled with evil, violence and greed

i am a believer

i choose to believe him

but that doesn't mean i am not grief-stricken

i've had to go through so much pain

of losing loved ones one after another

can you spare me a break?

if there was a wishing star

or more

i'd wish everyone a safe and healthy life

To my cousin

i hope you are good wherever you are

i'd save for you a place in my heart

and as you look down upon us

please make sure your mum and family are alright

still i need some time to accept the fact that you are gone

but i will learn, as i have with Titi koko and Ah Ma's departure

youcannowrestinpeace

e

All about nothing

is when your life is as mundane as mine

you think so??

of course it is what you choose it to be

at this moment i favor silence over chaotic

loosely speaking that would be "happening" la

more and more i am spending most of my time at home

reading, sleeping, contemplating and procrastinating

all of which, but one, is not good for me

and you!!

life has not always been like this

i'm still waiting for that day

the day when pigs fly

and sparrows swim .....

ok enough whining, i know i'm pessimistic

what about you?

oh btw it is that time of the year again
when all ethnic music performers from all parts of the world
congregate at Camp Permai
to bring us
a helluva good night filled with great music

be there or be square!!
p/s: after four straight years, imma give it a pass this year

here's proof!!! lololol

2006

2007

2008

General Warning

Quitting smoking now greatly reduces serious risks to your health

doobidooba

2009

exit light, enter night

.:: e ::.

la da di da

i officially declare today as Sleep Day

and this will last a week

longer than any other festive occasion

why

because i say so!!!

like they say

relationships are like glass

sometimes it is better to leave them broken 

than get hurt by putting it back together

giving up does not mean you are weak

but strong enough to let go

What do you say?

let's go find something that'll make me sleep again

let's find something really boombastic

that can make me sleep 3d2n

if it works i'll share with the whole world 

whoever's sleep deprived

and if it doesn't well its just too bad

blame the bigass pharmaceuticals

counting sheep

e

La dee fucken dar

i've been absent alot lately

not because i want to but i've been tied up with things

and when i say things that really means nothing

guess i'm just plain lazy

besides i am at my fattest

so no camwhoring until i reach my target

could take a year

could take forever

it all depends how much effort and moolah i put in

effort=jogging, exercise la la la u get it

moolah=slimming center

in fact i think i have done everything it takes to make me a size 1 again

tried all the home exercises i could do

been to the gym 

jogging at reservoir park only to have a bastard breaking in

and took bb's wallet and the new phone i got him

my poor LV wallet and E72

so under the circumstances ~ a series of unfortunate events

 i decided to take the easier route to slimniness

T H I N S P I R A T I O N

to date i have already spent 4digits worth of slimming courses

i think this is one of the longest episode of being chubby

i've always been quite successful when it comes to fasting hehe

this is more than just shedding off the kgs

its the medication that i'm on which has side effects such as weight gain

in the long run

and yours truly has been taking them since end 2008

but as i gradually make progress

professor Hussain says its time to wean off those medicine

and see if my situation would stabilize -----> eeks i hate that word

i've not asked for anything in my life

but this time, i'm looking up for some motivation

i thank you first

i is GRATEFUL if you could turn back the time

and i'd skip that medicine pronto

on a separate note

i scribbled in fb that online shopping is really taking off in Msia

though a latecomer, it, like other developed countries

is going through a phase

of online shopping, yes feel the euphoria right in your hands

they work miracles

and i thought only bouquets of flowers were able to

put a smile on my face

today i got another parcel, my bracelet yay****

day before yesterday i had to go to Pending to collect my other parcel

and yesterday i received a note from Poslaju

another parcel.... woowee

and here are the people at Poslaju

sweet people

u'd be surprised

if i could start all over again

i'd like to be a postman, see that genuine happy smile i can bring to ppl

not forever lah, just one day

but i guess i'll melt and faint on scorching hot days

speaking of parcels

i think i might have another parcel or two with them

is lunch time a good time to go?

alrite mebbe later then

oh ya, before i scoot off

let's find a chubbier piccha of me

just for laughs

N O T I N A M I L L I O N Y E A R S

haha
nola, will la will la
just not today

to end this
try saying
SHOE SECTION 5X before you go
:)

hashbu-q
e