Just one day to go

before i begin my journey to Taipei

and i'm down with a cold, sore throat and the occasional cough

i'm so sick i'm secretly wishing that i could flag the trip!!!

since my parents and the bf are also sick

 

DAMN THOSE GERMS!!

i was thinking, that if it wasn't because of the stupid cold

8 days didn't seem enough for me to cover Taipei

as there are many places of interest to discover and explore ...

In Taipei itself, of course there is Ximending, the Harajuku of Taipei

and then there's the infamous Shihlin night market

Longshan Temple, Zhong Xiao East Road

in the Xinyi district which is littered with endless shopping malls

and outside the Taipei city 

there is Danshui, famous for the Lover's bridge

Jiufen for its scenery and romantic teahouses

Yeliu for the amazing rock formations

 

Keelung, a port city, and its famous Miaokou night market

Xindian (Shu Qi's hometown) for its lake

or maybe Wulai for a dip in the hot spring

Yilan via SuHua national highway which has a great ocean view (Pacific Ocean)

 

walao ...... how to cover all these places when we are all weak in the knees??

DAMMIT

aiya

then there is the packing dilemma

as i was telling Ms G

i was unsure, until now, if i should bring my boots

but these boots are not made for walking!!! strut around and then die from excruciating pain

wahhahahhaha

or should i pack comfy and look like a Ah Soh??

aiyerrrrr, only one night left to think about it

It is, officially autumn in Taiwan now

but it ain't that cold yet, i mean a jacket would suffice

with temperature around 29-30 deg Celcius

but with cooler wind lar...

this calls for a fashion police moment!!

sickandsicker

e

The most tiring day

of my life has got to be today

i'm serious.....

actually it began last night

when i suddenly felt nauseous

and puked hardout

cold sweat all over, it was terrible

this morning i woke up at 8am

and i had to pack my things

go eat breakfast and rushed to the pharmacy

to buy meds and saline for my lenses

rushed off to the airport 

to check-in only to find that

my flight was actually at 12.55pm

instead of 11.55pm

and when i boarded the plane

we were delayed by some

silly passengers who boarded the wrong plane

we took off at 1.45pm

arrived at 3.20pm

then there was another one hour drive to town

had to run some errands before

i had dinner

after which we headed for Genting

and then we were delayed again

our car broke down

three times on our journey up the hill

so damn unlucky lor

when we arrived at the hotel

we were again delayed by the hotel staff

that took another one hour or more

right now i'm finally in the room

tell me that is not a long day

i could've flown to L.A already

pissed

not feeling lucky

not going to the casino

wtf

pooped

e

Moron

signing into Blogger makes me feel like a moron

it takes about 30 min just for me to log in

because Blogger decided that

each and everyone of us create some new account to log in

it's confusing me

i'm lucky i am able to sign in anyway

speaking of morons

i am one too

i picked a fight with the wrong person

my mum :(

needless to say she won

by running off with the maid

ok, she didn't run off literally

she brought my kakak to Sibu for my aunt

that means i'm back to mopping floors every single fucking morning

i had time off for about a week

that made it the best week i've had so far this year

btw it is the boyfriend's birthday tomorrow

still cracking my head how to celebrate it in a special way

sucks that tomorrow is a working day

well maybe i could get him to take leave for tomorrow

but that doesn't mean he can run away from responsibilities

i swear he has thousands of calls to answer everyday

annoying can?

ok i'm gonna look for a dress that i can fit into

and then get ready for candle-lit dinner

but what if the place we are going has no candles?

should i stuff some in my bag?

so unglam

e

Tension headache

please fucking go away

as if i do not take enough medicine already

now i gotta pop another one

just because some retard decides to get even with me

don't even get me started

i wish i could devour a bunch of poisonous shrooms

to prove my innocence 

but then again is it worth dying for?

especially when the whole world knows very well

that this is a natural reflex

whenever i tear or have an argument with anybody

i usually end up seeing a doctor

which will set me back by a good RM40

when i can use that money to do something more worth it

like pumping petrol 

or buy 15 packs of kolo mee to donate it to charity

i have been wondering lately if i have become too dependant

on my family or anybody else

maybe it is high time i set the records straight

and look for a decent job that pays good money

so i can fucking bribe the doctor of a home injection kit

then i'll be able to jab myself

and he wont have to see my face so often

and you cant even imagine the fucking pain I'm going through

but why would you care

even though you are the culprit

it has happened so many times

i don't even bother to explain what why when how

migraines are pure torture

caused by the lack of compassion or feelings for me

why?

because you are selfish and at the same time

too creative for your own good

turning delusional over a meaningless conversation

marvelous - you should probably be a movie script writer 

then you can give me money for providing you inspiration to be paranoid

and consequently cash in the money if it turns out to be box-office material

thanks for ruining my life but above all else

but i have to come clean first

honestly when i tell you are the only one

believe it

when you doubt me i begin to doubt myself and that's where the problems

start rushing in

your insecurities then become mine

and then i wonder if it is worth it at all

it's incredible the whole world knows me thatwell but you don't

for fuck's sake i am a scorpio

 i either hate you or love you

anything that is past its expiry date is hello-goodbye

it is not worth holding on to or storing it in my memory bank

but hor

SOME PEOPLE CHOOSE NOT TO BELIEVE IT

the result? argument la

his name becomes an omen

i'm over it and i've already moved on

his name is nothing but a cruel joke for me

every pun intended, only you can't see pass the facade

the conversation carries a shitload of sacarsm

but unfortunate for me, you can't detect even the slightest bit lo

so how?

i become qian1 gu3 zui4 ren2 lo!!!

on a side note
maybe i should learn how to take care of myself
and not just rely on other people 
maybe i can start going to the movies myself
but hold on, i never liked watching movies until last year
i am a convert, from a clubbaholic to a movieholic
without an ounce of regret

wait
pregnant pause


yes, positive - no regrets
the only thing that's bugging me is
that i am charged guilty without trial
so super not fair right?
have you heard of anybody losing their voice over a stupid message?
over a stupid name?
you know what? you can go play and talk to your fingers
because i am done with this


and just so you know
i hate playing mind games 
and from now on i gotta play my cards right
im gonna show the world how EVIL and malicious like i am
make them hate me so much that
when you all eventually find out the naked truth
i would remain silent
and you all will be like "ohh damn, we've wronged her!!"

would that be too late?
i spent the past two decades of my life going against the flow
while other people are trying their best to cover up their not-so-glorious past
i chose to own up
and admit that some of the things i've done in the past
is horrible
but at least i don't hide them
but at the same time i regret telling YOU
because you always use it as a weapon against me
consciously or unconsciously
it don't matter


i'll take every blow like a real man
take it as it is
i know

imsupergreatright?
e

Simply Bizarre

today is by far the hottest day in 2010 

leaving me no choice but to stand up on my friend again

*hang on* before you think i'm a bitch yadda yadda yadda

i did give her a buzz so she knows i won't turn up

to be honest i could be just using the sun as an excuse

i have lost interest in going anywhere

unless with the boyfriend

so today, like any other day

i waited patiently for him to knock off work

so i could see him as soon as possible

before the clock struck five

i toiled about in the house, shuffling from my room to the living room

back to dad's study and the loo

played with QQ and Fifi

i even tried to make myself sleep in the hope that

when i wake up it will be nightfall

but that didn't work

so time, loosely speaking, passed by like eternity

well anyway eternity came about with great perserverance

seeing his sms telling me he was going home

put a smile on my face

i had so much to tell him

but i carefully filtered everything unimportant

so that it doesn't bore him as much

besides tomorrow is D-day

as much as i would like to share it with the world

this one i told myself to lay low

so my mouth is zipped to the public

so after all that waiting, from 8am to 7pm

i was expecting him to pick me up after he cleaned up

but that call never came

replacing it was an sms to ask me who yi lee was

some taiwanese guy

my sixth sense told me that this was trouble brewing

soon enough we were shooting smses back and forth

him accusing, me ignoring

he went on like a raging bull chasing after the red flag

and i gave it some thought after switching my phone off

and i realized

that he was fucking selfish

because at the end of the day

all he cared about was himself, it was so obvious

that he didn't want to be cheated on

look at it from a different angle, the whole relationship was about him him and just him

my life didn't matter to him

whether i was dying on bed-ridden

it wasn't about me

in his world i don't exist

i exist to complement his presence

it probably won't matter to him even if i was raped today

as long as the person raping me wasn't somebody i had an affair with

or some bloke that i knew from aeons ago

or some distant cousin by marriage

well before you put me to shame

i have something to tell the world

the same person who claims to love me and only me

has been trying to hook up with other girls

behind my back

YES, and i have proof of it

Last September he told my friend that i was not worth his time

and that if he had the moolah, he'd rather splurge it on seafood

and even by October

it seemed like he had a different agenda within him

he tried to hook up with another girl

and he claimed that he was SINGLE

when we were already seeing each other

on August 6th

again he wrote to another chick

offering his services to help her out

at midnight

minutes after he had sent me a msg 

telling me to return his call

one year and this is it?

blardy hell

ptui!!! pot calling the kettle black

he knows pretty darn well that he is treading on thin ice

if you happen to read this

please don even try to give me an alibi

because i'm sick fuck tired of all your antics

and to cap the night

i have to sleep alone wondering if tomorrow would be fine

while you fume yourself over NOTHING

maybe it's just him wriggling himself out of a situation to hang out

with his friends

well, just so you know

i'm not at your disposal

wasting my time

anymore disgusting?

signing off with much hatred

e

Mayday Mayday Mayday

I repeat Mayday

This is not a practice!!

The month of July is by far the worst I've encountered

in money management

The condition is SO critical it has to be documented

for damage control purposes

Bills bills and more bills

Not 1 not 2 but a stack of them

cellphone provider, credit card providers, loans among others

you get the gist

and I thought I was doing fine

and I really didn't see it coming

not until today

*wtf

Online Shopping

is a big no no

because you tend to lose track of your purchases

and it can be quite addictive

so addictive it can get outta hand

until the credit card bills come

one by one

a bitter pill to swallow yea and it looks like it's

going to be one hard habit to kick

*FML

Health

so all these indulgence without doubt

has had a big impact on my health

I'm nauseated half the time

and migraine along with other side effects

pays a visit every other day

whatever it is, migraine or not

shit happens

and how to we heal with it all?

more visits to the doctor

*BS

so my friends

if you ever catch me pulling my wallet out

punch me in the face

iamsick

**e**

Treatment

for my bruised ego and

whatever's left of my dignity

it was so clear i had to go shopping

and i did

and it gets even better

together with mum ;)

after *that fateful day

my feelings for him has taken a turn

seeing him is not only scary

but it transports me back to the dreadful days

i need to find a way to un-link him from

those dreadful times

and i ask myself as i ponder

would i be able to continue with this relationship

because i'd prefer us to be just friends

as he'd not

it's like treading on thin ice

 

truth be told

i've lost all faith & hope

and everything merry that made the relationship going

before *that heartwrenching day of course

well at least i won't be needing this

*lame joke

 

.:whatwouldyoudo:.

e

Already gone

for those of you who live in KL

i have great news for you

especially those that are superstitious

Angie the tarot card reader

is so good it's hard to ignore

she told my boyfriend that we'd have bad times in July

and she was right

it was as if the month of July was jinxed for us

it started with a message

that ensued in a misunderstanding * won't share details*

after this was solved

another appeared almost immediately

which involved a girl friend

after three days of bickering

we patched back but there was another Ace up trouble's sleeve

this time also because of

another close friend of his

who loved making up stories

adding fuel to the fire

she almost wrecked our relationship

but we found out in time that she was behind all the lies

saving the best for last

this time it was just me and him

it got so hardcore

during our heated argument

both of us were hurt *not literally

and i have not seen him since

today is Day-3 after that horrible moment

the last text i sent to him

was for me my sanity i guess

not for his bruised ego

just showed that Angie was right from the start

she can be found on level 6

orange side of sungai wang

look only for Angie 

she is the only woman there

the rest are men

she'll tell you whatever you want to know

in 15 min in exchange for RM80

never try never know

no harm done

afterall it is only RM80 :)

*******************************************

 

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would have work out right, yeah

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

[Chorus]

I want you to know

That it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

But someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you wanna cry

It started with the perfect kiss then

We could feel the poison set in

"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so

I love you enough to let you go

[Chorus]

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone

 

.:Kelly Clarkson:.

whatyoudidisirrevocable

e

la da di da

i officially declare today as Sleep Day

and this will last a week

longer than any other festive occasion

why

because i say so!!!

like they say

relationships are like glass

sometimes it is better to leave them broken 

than get hurt by putting it back together

giving up does not mean you are weak

but strong enough to let go

What do you say?

let's go find something that'll make me sleep again

let's find something really boombastic

that can make me sleep 3d2n

if it works i'll share with the whole world 

whoever's sleep deprived

and if it doesn't well its just too bad

blame the bigass pharmaceuticals

counting sheep

e

QQ bites!!

 my poor pet dog is in the hospital again

day after day 

there is a new issue

from now on, mum has to monitor his food consumption

feed less if possible

bcause the vet said he was overweight

yup 10kg is hard to lug up and down the staircase

even dogs have to diet

;p

xoxo

e worried about QQ

do i have

good credibility
gah hah hah
just this tuesday i paid all my bills
all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
burnt a hole in my pockets it did
but at least they won't be able to leech me on late payments or minimum payments
lets see

i'm trying to recall if there were any big purchases this week
first up
revitalash which promises to encourage eyelash growth
that cost a whopping RM548 for 4mll
expensive can?
then there were little purchases books and stuff
cleared my card bills
and i'm 7k poorer

what do i do?
stick my head in the toilet and flush it down
sienz


xoxo
e feels handicapped

oh em gee

i created a new layout
but
i lost everything else
and if it wasn't for mozilla i don't think i'd find
a way to even post up an entry
i've got this page bookmarked
but what if i was on a common pc?
aleh
what should i do
revert to the old one
the one Kenny had done for me
or stick with this new one
dilemmas

oh yea
i made a real big booboo today
it has been rectified oh yes
after hundreds and thousands of ppl have read it
i hope the esteemed association is not too angry
about it
fingers crossed i am not going to let it happen again
feel real bad
i wanna crawl under my covers right now

chow
xoxo
e feels down

return of the golden g-bye

i used to have two maids
whom i called the golden g-byes
for they were never scolded or punished
for their wrong doings
the thing that got me pissed off most
was that i was the one being told off
instead of them because i had no evidence

that didn't matter because
time did indeed prove me right
time unveiled their petty crimes but
only after many many things were nicked
well they owned up and apologized
so it was clean slate for them
until their contract time was up
and they left for their hometown *somersaults*

history repeated itself again today
my new maid really is one of a kind
lemme give you a deeper insight on Sina
she is incapable of cleaning the house
mopping the floor, cleaning the loo
folding or ironing clothes
cooking and gardening

for fuck's sake she has been doing fuck all
at fuck all speed
given the time she has all day
i'd have finish running a 10 mile marathon
nevermind that
today she made an irrevocable mistake
talking back and slamming the door at my dad

it all began when she asked for permission to go out
she was dressed to the nines
complete with earrings, bangle and sparkly necklace
the dress she wore i gave to her
according to her she was going out with a bunch of friends
two girls and one other guy

we advised her against going out
mum got real angry and went to look for the guy
who happens to live nearby
no major arguments but he did give his word
that he would not ever look for my maid
on his part

mum drilled the maid hardout
when she got back
she was fuming
and amidst all these we found out that
she had stolen our jewelry
both platinum and gold
and the rest was history

an epic saga it was
cause she was so "bo kuan"
talkin back at my parents
it wasn't until
her agent came by to warn her
that he could sell her off to either miri or sibu
that would extend her time
in malaysia by another two years
did she stop yakking and protesting

i am so sick of this drama
i kept quiet throughout the whole time
but i have been observing all this while
i know what was taken from me
she returned a gold necklace to me today
but that's not all
but i firmly believe that time will tell
like it has before

i'm waiting for another eruption
today's explosion measures only a mild 4.5 on the richter scale
ooooOOOoooooo
i can't wait for the big one
the one that will get her out from our house
i have to start locking my room beginning tomorrow
i don't feel safe in my own house anymore
imma tell my dad to cook
what if she poisons us?
wtf

thought i was done with
the pair of golden g-byes
her predecessors
but noooooooooooooo
i have another one to deal with now
one that moves silently
like an ninja assasin
wtf

xoxo
done with maids
all fuckalls