Another mundane day

A year ago

i would have been very happy

not doing anything but just flicking

from one channel to another on the idiot box

today i'm bored to the skull

sitting through dramas and sitcoms and what nots

never would i have thought

this day would come

i am so depressed

my life is pathetic because

instead of looking forward to weekends

i'm actually longing for a job

now that i'm almost fully recovered
staying home is probably the worst thing on earth
especially during the day
when frenemies are away or out at work

i cannot even imagine
how some people can actually cope with this
sleep during the day
and go out and play by night

no i can't take it anymore
i need to shout it all out, let it all out
everyone around me seems to have
an agenda or task of their own

me?

on a separate note
it was B's lunar birthday yesterday
we celebrated it again
this time with my family

hope he is happy
if i can't be happy at least
i wish that people around me
can be happy

btw while surfin the net
i read that the medication i am on
has a "horriterrible" side effect
WEIGHT GAIN

so no matter what i do
diet, exercise or eat less
i still will put on weight, meaning
even if i were to live on water
i'd still be fat

i feel like ending my life

fuckmylife
e

Drinking tea

has become a daily habit

not your normal red tea but real chinese tea

i used to be a hardcore coffee addict

until i found out that each Nescafe sachet contains 10g of sugar

i totally flagged it

back to tea

today's tea of the day is oolong tea

brought back from Taiwan

taste quite good & the good thing

is it's not too harsh on me stomach

like when i go to kopitiam

i normally order chinese tea peng

la-sap tea leaves 

not only makes me stomach churn 

its also gastric inducing!!

anyway to be honest

i have only water and tea to pick from

given that i'm bent on losing weight

and what better than tea 

right?

no more ribena, no more coffee

no more coke, zappel and kickapoo

no more kopi-o-peng or ice lemon tea

i hope this sacrifice

would result in a few kilos lost lor!!

if not

i can go die now lor!

going out

brb

(edit) 2.17pm

i hate everybody

i hate the world i live in

because it is unfair

skinny people have it all

nice figure and all

so what if you have a big nose?

fork out a few $k and wala u are perfect

and me?

lipo cost $20k+

depending on where you want the fats to be sucked out

and having parents that don't really care

about me gradually becoming a blimp

doesn't really help

each time i try to put on my clothes

i turn real emo and upset

angry cause i let myself to eat so much in the past

i feel like dying

i might as well just marry and have a baby

and have a perfect excuse to remain fat forever

than i can blame my kids forever

then again i don't want 

to become my mum, always blaming and nagging

frenemies

if you have a super diet plan

(besides taking street drugs)

please email me!!

nothing seem to work no more

i secretly hope that my scale at home is concusted

but even if it is not accurate

there are the clothes and jeans that i may never 

ever be able to wear again

i hate skinny people

i hate you all

goingtodie

e

So just the other day

my boo and i decided to do something 

about our atrocious weight gain

Day 1

we went jogging at amphitheater

i walked 2 complete rounds

while he jogged 4 rounds and walked another

before we stopped to do some stretching exercise

i would have normally shunned jogging at 5pm

cause in my opinioin

it is much healthier to jog at 6 or 6.30 in the morning

and the air of course, fresher

trouble is, we have a hard time

waking up at 6ish

or more like we'd rather sleep in 

during a public holiday or weekends

Day 2

yesterday we went swimming

at first i hesitated to jump into the pool

cause the water damn cold

i damn scared of cold water CAN?

i tried alot of ways to avoid going in

but that couldn't fool the bf

and eventually i gave in and braved the cold!!

geng anot??

after 90 min in the pool

we decided to call it a day

primarily because i hadn't had dindin

and that it was already getting late

it took me less time to get out, say 1 min?

and in no time i was bathing

changed and ready to go MAKAN

settled for late night chicken rice

TODAY

i woke up, sore here sore there

the body is aching soooooooooooooooo badly

and i thought to myself there is no way

i am going for badminton today

so what if i am fat?

i'm gonna prolly let it be

so what if i am inactive? 

at least it doesn't leave me sore everywhere!!

and i noticed that exercising made me eat more

right after, i think

problem is, how to pysche my boy

not to hit the courts tonight

gotmythinkingcaponnow

e

 

La dee fucken dar

i've been absent alot lately

not because i want to but i've been tied up with things

and when i say things that really means nothing

guess i'm just plain lazy

besides i am at my fattest

so no camwhoring until i reach my target

could take a year

could take forever

it all depends how much effort and moolah i put in

effort=jogging, exercise la la la u get it

moolah=slimming center

in fact i think i have done everything it takes to make me a size 1 again

tried all the home exercises i could do

been to the gym 

jogging at reservoir park only to have a bastard breaking in

and took bb's wallet and the new phone i got him

my poor LV wallet and E72

so under the circumstances ~ a series of unfortunate events

 i decided to take the easier route to slimniness

T H I N S P I R A T I O N

to date i have already spent 4digits worth of slimming courses

i think this is one of the longest episode of being chubby

i've always been quite successful when it comes to fasting hehe

this is more than just shedding off the kgs

its the medication that i'm on which has side effects such as weight gain

in the long run

and yours truly has been taking them since end 2008

but as i gradually make progress

professor Hussain says its time to wean off those medicine

and see if my situation would stabilize -----> eeks i hate that word

i've not asked for anything in my life

but this time, i'm looking up for some motivation

i thank you first

i is GRATEFUL if you could turn back the time

and i'd skip that medicine pronto

on a separate note

i scribbled in fb that online shopping is really taking off in Msia

though a latecomer, it, like other developed countries

is going through a phase

of online shopping, yes feel the euphoria right in your hands

they work miracles

and i thought only bouquets of flowers were able to

put a smile on my face

today i got another parcel, my bracelet yay****

day before yesterday i had to go to Pending to collect my other parcel

and yesterday i received a note from Poslaju

another parcel.... woowee

and here are the people at Poslaju

sweet people

u'd be surprised

if i could start all over again

i'd like to be a postman, see that genuine happy smile i can bring to ppl

not forever lah, just one day

but i guess i'll melt and faint on scorching hot days

speaking of parcels

i think i might have another parcel or two with them

is lunch time a good time to go?

alrite mebbe later then

oh ya, before i scoot off

let's find a chubbier piccha of me

just for laughs

N O T I N A M I L L I O N Y E A R S

haha
nola, will la will la
just not today

to end this
try saying
SHOE SECTION 5X before you go
:)

hashbu-q
e

my ideal

weight is 43-45kg
and bad news
i am far from reaching my goal
even though i hit the gym everyday
in fact, it's making me heavier due to built-up muscles
but then i was told that
my weight will eventually drop back to normal
when the body is used to the exercises

i have been waiting for that miracle to happen since August
it is now October November and there has been no changes to my size or weight yet
previously one could say that i deserve to gain weight for not doing anything
but hey ever since level up opened i've been going to the gym everyday
at one point i was only 41kg
but that was when i was really under severe stress
well at least i looked good
now i just look like a pork bun
chinese pork bun
cilaka

rules

are meant to be abided
but i'm taking a great huge risk
by using office internet to blog
on a lighter note
i attended a pink party at amoebar last night
i'm a sucker for themed parties
but last night i decided to stay low
and opted for a pink-laced piece instead

the pub was filled with
fun people
trannies, gays, cross-dressers, straights
but the theme alone was a big giveaway
John was conned into wearing pink
by none other than the birthday boy himself
Patrick Ling
whom i met officially for the first time last night
Jack as well, both eunuchs
i found out last night
****insider joke

picchas posted below was curi-ed from John
i will post mine up a bit later
when i have full access later ..... ;)
you get my drift
i'm walking on thin ice as i type

.:beautifully done:.
fuschia is my current favorite color *skippydeedoo

though it wasn't the usual crowd
that you've gotten accustomed to
it wasn't an issue for me
one because the place was beautifully done up
two, everyone was having fun
literally
it was fun to be amongst them
btw, i'm proud John was picked as a finalist
for the best dressed male
i don't have to explain why... like DOH!


i thought i had a nose for gays
but i think i've lost the ability to smell them
i could smell them from miles away
but being away from the gay crowd
has stripped me off of my supernatural power to sense them
trannies on the other hand
are a no brainer
but i had a hard time telling who was what
but of course there is always Patrick to rely on

.:patrick's the one in the middle:.
what's with my pursed lips...
hmmm


wonderful Juju *hope i get her name right
had a birthday cake prepared for Patrick
so he celebrated his birthday for
the second time last night
i offered him to celebrate again tonight
like as a closing ceremony
wtf like three days in a row
not that it has not been done
i recall celebrating my birthday for a week
one particular year
i shall remember that as a good year.... ;)

.:juju on left and best dressed male on right:.

Jack was a being a prick last night
uploading picchas on fb and wrongly tagging names
that is so twisted
i'd blow his head off
if i was John
kesian John kena salah tagged
nemind, we revenge later
scorpios mah ... ;)

.:that's a candid of me trying to get a candid of him:.


.:one of the performance:.

Black pearl whom i got to know last nite
was a real sweetie
not only could "she" dance
she could talk the talk
and walk the walk
i salute!
there were two performers actually
but i was only introduced to one ...


.: my favorite party pooper winning something:.
don care what
as long as WIN
refer to red arrow in piccha

more picchas will be uploaded the min i get home
and when i have free time on my hands
my plate seems to be full these days
i need to learn to unwind
relax and apply
my thinspiration theory
into my pathetic sideways-growing body

xoxo
recalling Jojo struys on the radio last night
what about dipping the foot in hot water
detox and all
bath salts i'm coming for you!!!

bored to the skull

and mad pissed still for not being able to lose any weight

i've done everything from eating less to exercising
could this be the mid-life crisis they always talked about
noooooooooooo
i refuse to dwell on the subject
let's move on

apart from my fucken weight gain
i'm also super bored
come tuesday i would be tied up with things
things even i am unaware of
yes it's too private to share with you all
boohooohooo

well if it's any consolation
i have a movie date tonight
me being me i normally would refuse the offer
but he's a real good friend
and i want to be there for him in times of need
besides i only have three more days of total freedom
and then i'm chained and restricted again

.:colors brighten up your life:.

where i am going colors are taboo
it's gonna be so boring boring boring
bracing myself for that moment
it may result in another massive migraine attack
which in turn would mean RM28 for two jabs to rid the pain and nausea
watodo watodo

.:tick tock tick tock:.

.:i want music to my ears:.
let there be music
and there was music
as if

.:i need jenny craig's:.
or mebbe weight watchers
laff all u want

the only thing i look forward to
given "those" circumstances is weight loss
IT may propel the stress level to a new high
so high that i worry and worry
and then i eventually shed those extra pounds
that would my only SANITY
i have lost my mind since July 10th
and every ounce of confidence with every inch added to the waist or hips

dear God
as i have mentioned it many many times before
if you won't make me skinny again
please make everyone else fat and chubby
where did i go wrong
yes i'm that close to resorting to liposuction
but before i go under the knife
i might just give Kenny's gym a go

.:torture myself on one of these:.
i love whining
please bear with me until i return to my normal self

heck it's RM99 per month membership fees
and if all fails
it's back to the surgery room
no, i've never been liposucked
but hitting the big 3-0 is worrying me
that's when excess fat in you becomes real stubborn
and a pain in the arse to kill

imma blame it on water retention for now
it is near "that" time of the month
if you know what i mean
see see
blogging about it is already ushering in the pain
oh hello old friend migraine
brb needa take a pill
before things get any worse

imma stop now
i don't want a full blown attack

xoxo
i hate you fats

si beh suay

the cherry syrup didn't work too well on me yesterday
i ended up puking intermittently
went back for the rectal pump today
i just wanna laugh everytime i see it
it's so mofo huge i think i'm gonna hurt myself
just trying to position the pump
why oh why


what the label says

for rectal use only

this package contains one UNI-ma Enema in a ready-to-use squeezable bottle
with suitable rectal tube. It is designed for disposal after use. An extra amount of solution is
provided to allow for the quantity normally remaining in bottle after squeezing

Dosage and administration: Adult
one bottle (118 ml delivered dose)
or as prescribed by physician

1. pull to remove cap from the tip
2. slowly insert to the rectum
3. squeeze the bottle until empty
4. remove the tip carefully from the rectum
5. wait until urge to evacuate

Effectiveness: Usual evacuation is within 2 to 5 minutes

.:just to give you guys an idea how big the pump is:.
omfg!
i know i know, anymore gross?

on a brighter note
one of my expected parcels has arrived
this one's from rebecca in malacca
mwah mwah mwahsssss
made my day so much better



xoxo
fingers crossed i get better today

bed-ridden

for 18 hours or more now
still sweating by the buckets
saw a doctor last night
gave me a fright in the middle of last night
oooooh i can feel it
this is gonna be a bigass long one
still hyperventilating
and
migraine the minute i wake up
does not help much either
i am DOOOMED!!!!

my brief encounter

with Xenical for the past few days
has brought nothing but EXCRUCIATING pain
my advise to those that want to lose weight fast is
to NEVER EVER try taking this blardy blue pill
which has a secret motto of its own
"everything that goes in must come back out"
it does that to me each time
i eat something
even water!!

pardon me for being extremely angry here
but you DO NOT want to take this pill
to counter its effects
i've just taken a LOMOTIL
to stop all the merry activities
wtf
also took a pill for nausea
cause that's how you'll feel after
each trip to the toilet
let's not forget cold sweat!!

i hate Xenical
i reiterate that Xenical is nothing
but pain in the arse
literally

xoxo
sick and offguard

when the night comes

this is how witchy e looks like

.:not super dulan just happily tired:.

my heart goes out to
those that really went all out
more picchas another time
pooped as!!

xoxo
♥ witchy smell ♥
p/s: i still needa lose weight

still snacking away ♥ ♥ ♥

i don't believe it

i've gained an extra kg
just by sleeping during the day
i recall having dinner
this was followed by some MSN
before i picked Patzy
to get some stuff to Nancy

and then
HERE COMES THE HORRIBLE PART
we decided to have drinks
drinks!!

.:stoooopid patz:.

.:gullible me:.

.:e for miss e, eeekay and ericka:.

.:evil P:.

.:kena conned-e:.

that was about 11.45p.m
disciplinary action had to be taken here
my order was something SOUR
they say sour stuff aids weight loss
he had a milo
and a peanut butter toast
with melting butta on top

.:hot milo and sour puss:.

.:Satan tempting me:.

EVERYONE KNOWS I LOVE TOAST
ok now ya'll do
imma hate him if i balloon up
to 50kg tomorrow
this is impossible
everyone's trying to put weight on
and it comes so easy for me
oh yea i ate noodles at 5.30 this morning
after sending me brother off
SHIT#@$%#@$#$

.:i needa lose weight:.
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♥
mum said if i think i'm skinny
then i'll lose weight
how positive
♥
xoxo
♥ is a tropical hippo ♥

Sleeping monster!!!!

yes that's me

i was up the whole of last night
to send me lil bro
to the airport this morning
at around 4.45a.m
i was so afraid i couldn't wake up
so ended up staying up
waiting for him to wake up
dumdumme

this was followed by prayers at the temple
and after that
i pigged out right from 11a.m to 6p.m
before i went for dinner
at continental tea house
that's some pretty hardcore sleeping
ahhahaahah
my face looks bloated from all that sleeping
wanna see?

lemme try a webcam shot
.:ooooooooo my so effin bloated:.
see the sides of my face?
i know its a bit blurry
it is a cam shot lolx

they say if you don't have
a distinctive jawline
means you are bloated
and mine, is not that pronounced
so I'M BLOATED
does that mean i stay up tonight?
or do i get some more sleep?
oh gawd
there is so much DRAMA in my life
just ova sleep alone

.:oops my nails look horrible in this one:.
i've been picking on them
they look all ugly now
in fact imma gonna wash them off
b4 i go pick patsy to send some
stuff back to my gf nancy
till then


xoxo
wonders if she should sleep early

my erratic eating habits

has resulted in drastic weight gain
from coffee in the morning
to dinner at night
my daily intake now has increased
drastically to noodles for breakfast
assorted kueh mueh for lunch
nasi lemak for tea break
dinner followed by supper at midnight

the weight gain has been questioned
by my doctor who believes that
a 4kg increase in 10 days
is simply abnormal!!!!
models and actresses are not the only ones
in the world who worry about weight
commoners like moi also worry about it
and with good reason
i am not even seeing anyone yet!!!

somebody or some magic pill has gotta
help me zap away da mad fatness
that has made me look noticeably
fuller figured of late
I HATE YOU FOOD!!
here's a piccha that doesn't show
me being fat at all haha
edited by a friend
at least i don look fat here



xoxo
ericka pledges to shed the pounds
♥ uber mad ♥

of self confidence and such

any dude can tell if a chicca
has got it together by observing us
for eg if we walk chin up
our mannerisms of communication
how we approach someone
are all indicators
of how confident we really are
and
i am doomed

my confidence level fluctuates with my body weight
attempts to workout or stick to a strict
diet regime have been futile
the belly's growing
along with the increase in appetite
the crunches and endless situps
have led to zero success
prior to this they have been
quite effective in keeping
my body lean and toned
the mind is not positive
a far from admirable trait

i relish the times when i was labeled
fatso or fei mui and refuse
to hear those names again
imma gonna work harder in getting back
to my goal of 43kg and
a strong will power is key!!!
dear God if you wont make me any skinnier
please make everyone else fatter

i admit i am selfish

xoxo
ericka piles on the pounds
:(