June 3, 2011
June 1, 2011
April 21, 2011
April 1, 2011
The night markets were not spared of course but this time the massive shopping centers i passed on them because the trip wasn't a leisure holiday. It was rather more like a spiritual one than it is a shopping trip. But night markets are a must because there is always a good bargain somewhere....trinkets and all.
A slight recap from my last trip here in October, the weather then was much hotter while it is really windy and cold now. Thinking that it should be entering Spring i brought alot of florals and light jackets i ended up buying a hugeass jacket in the end to fight the cold. And everyday now and then i'd find myself walking into 7/11 to buy the hand warming packs cause they were cold even though i had gloves on. I brought only a pair of jeans and bought another pair, thank god i did cause in my suit cases were mostly floral skirts etc...
And there were more bad news, but i do not think i want to share with the whole world. I'm sorry, some things do have to be personal cause i really don't have want to have to talk about it, especially now. Life would consist more of traveling from now onwards. ;) everyday when i think about it, i'd just tell myself how gullible i was to believe everything i hear or see. Maybe it is because i do not go around with a motive. They say you will never meet a liar unless you are one, and i believe that is true.
moving on to lighter and cheery things, here are some photos i took at the xin yuan bed&breakfast at Yilan and it is nothing less than remarkable. The place is beautifully done up and the ambience is great, cosy and homely which is just great because i am homesick, really. gosh i really miss my fifi and i hope my tbrother and aunty has fed him well and kept him hydrated. He must be crazy wondering where his mummy has left him. I feel so guilty now. If only animals could fly too!
so much for now. some zai nan needs to use the pc and judging by the look on his face i think he is very pissed that i've been hogging the pc for way too long.
like i care,
but i need some shut eye. i don't give two hoots about you! bleh!
January 22, 2011
each time i am upset or moody i am inspired to write
but as soon as the Xanax kicks in
i lose all motivation and everything is point blank again
but one thing remains for sure, and that is i’m upset again
at a time when everyone is busy scooting around town making last purchases
before they usher in the lunar new year
for me, this festive season brings me a mixed bag of emotions
happy because it marks a new phase in life, new resolutions etc
sad because it evokes unpleasant memories (not going into details)
the year of the rabbit is no exception
it has been that way since 2006 and i do not foresee a change in circumstances
and i often blame myself for these self-inflicted pain
Thank god for xanax!!!
and God if you really do exist
please make the year a smooth sailing one, albeit challenges and obstacles
because dying is not a solution
some of you may think or say that my life is far better than those in the under-developed countries
where there are famines and no food and clean water
my take is, never make comparisons
even if one has to compare
it would be on the quality of life now and then
mine has for sure deteriorated from the heydays of being filthy rich
when i was in my late twenties
a fortune teller told me that i’d strike the jackpot when i hit the forties
but not without some major challenges in my mid 30’s
36 to be more accurate
there is a high chance that i would be bed-ridden and eventually die
what scares me most was that i used to tell my childhood friends that
i wouldn’t live beyond 36 …………..
the past two years have been tumultuous, pathetic and terribly lonely
while most of my peers are happily married with children and some still high flyers
mine was lived in solitude with no shoulder to cry on
pathetic because it’s a Saturday tonight and it is half past ten as i type
and i am home, yes i am home without an agenda
or a number i could dial to turn things around, nurture my soul whatevs
perhaps i should go to sleep like i always do
and i’d tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day
such is life
January 14, 2011
lately the gloomy cold weather has sent everyone into a steamboat frenzy
and i was no exception
the longer it rained the more we craved for steamboat
of all the steamboat restaurants that we tried
there is no doubt that the one near RH plaza at BDC owned by the Chinese lady
was the best
not only because of the soup base, but because they had the most
awesome sauces where one gets to mix them to suit your likings
there is a knock-off steamboat restaurant at 101 that has almost the same, if not all
menu as the one in BDC
its only downfall was the sauces that were a tad different
and the meat were sliced too thin, so thin i couldn’t stop laughing
typing this entry makes me wanna have steamboat tonight
unless the rain stops
which is most unlikely cause it rained the whole of yesterday
and i expect the same for today since it is, after all, the monsoon season….
will starve myself today
January 7, 2011
37 days have passed
since my cousins arrived on Malaysian shores
today will be the last day of their vacation
before they return to Singapore tomorrow where the grueling begins
i foresee that when they return home
they will be slammed with more homework than ever
in preparation for the new year ahead
and we, especially mum, will miss them heaps
oh well, there’s always next year end
because it is an annual thing
after year-end exams they would be sent back here again
where there is no stress or pressure on studies
miss you guys!!
i wished they could come every 3 months
really i do …..
the sad thing is, i didn’t even take that many
pictures with them