not happy

i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
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but what is it to you all?
everyone's too selfish to care about what really makes me happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
and until i am
i will never be the girl i used to be before
the extrovert who loved to interact with the world
a convert introvert
who's lost her charm
and ability to carry herself in the real world
living in a world she has created for herself
because she can fend for herself anymore
because she has lost almost everything that meant dearly to her
because she doesn't have someone who shares the same opinion
but if its any consolation
she still has fifi
fifi is still under her care (theoretically)
who is she kidding?

i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i don't deserve to be happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy
i am not happy

goodbye ericka
see you when you get there

xoxo
e loses track of herself